Just wanted to ramble about all the crap in my mind, rather than keeping it in my head and letting it swirl…
Mostly just feeling insignificant in the universe… which is fair enough, I really am. You know the whole ‘why does anything matter, I’m like a speck of dust on the shelf that is the universe, I have no effect on anything’ sort of mindset. And don’t worry, I’m not feeling like that now, just throwing it out there. When really, that statement is true… with context. The context of viewing the entire universe at once, that is. In that context, sure… you can’t change anything significant. But how about, in the eyes of family and friends? Yes, you can change everything. Our perception can pretty much be summed up as a field of vision… you can only take in so much at once, anything more is left to the imagination, or you just don’t even realise it enough to care.
But say, you can change the universe… how would you? Most of the time, we only think of, say, changing physics, or destroying the universe… (on a seperate, but somewhat related point, if you _did_ destroy the universe, can you really say, scientifically, that you changed the universe, if you also destroyed everything capable of observing a change?). We can’t really fathom how we’d change the universe any other way, because we don’t understand it… what we do understand is everything right in front of us, that constantly changes. People, society… environments, colours. Even when something is constant, we can suddenly notice it by a change in focus within ourselves (see what I did there?). This all gets into time, which is not a point I want to get into… right now.
But basically, we’re creatures of society. We used to be creatures of survival… taking care of ourselves primarily. Now, we’re evolving together, through society and technology. I want to focus more on society in this post, though. We define ourselves based on clichés and terms we made ourselves. We categorise, that’s how we understand things easier. We’re successful, or losers, based on common terms made by people. But more importantly, we feel we need to be judged by those who are close to us… friends, family. Because it’s trust that can’t be commonly defined… where we find trust can’t really be categorised, or clichéd.. trust comes from places we don’t expect it. We’re social creatures, and we’re only human… we live our lives in our own heads, sharing it with other people, people that we trust. Getting all existential doesn’t really matter, because in the end, we’re aiming too high in what we expect to comprehend… what we’re supposed to understand is right in front of us. Trust, love, hunger, fear, anger, happiness… emotion, basically. Emotion is the driver, humanity is just the vessel. Our destination? Well, that’s another can of worms. 
If you read the whole thing, please comment… there are only a few people I actually expect to read this, but I’d like more thoughts on all this 
